My heart broke for her...
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Mon, 2006-06-19 17:08.
General
I wanted to cradle her in my arms forever, I wanted to protect her, to make things right, somehow change history and erase the pain and hurt that she had gone through...
This happened a couple months ago and it is only now that I can even think about it.
I went to the disco, met a girl, linked up and went home. Lying in bed afterwards, I got her talking and the story she told me was so sad and frightening that I couldn't grasp it initially.
The told me the story of how her father raped her at the age of fourteen and how after she told her mother she was scolded and made to feel as if it was HER fault... and after going to the police by herself she was made to feel like SHE was in the wrong by all her neighbors and friends...and crying for hours by herself and being lost and ALONE and not knowing who to turn to and thinking about killing herself. The community was critical of her and the trial broke up her family and the parents separated and then to make matters worse her stepfather made it known to her AND her mother that he wanted "some of your daughter" and her mother insisting to her that she "give it to him"....
I couldn't believe her story, I didn't WANT to beleive her story, but it is true, I found the story in the archives of Amandala.com and felt so sad for her, because she was so brave, so strong to have survived all of that and not be totally destroyed emotionally and mentally, and also ashamed to have had a one night stand with her, to probably ADD to her emotional baggage.
But I did not know her story, all I saw at the disco was a cute girl and did what most men are out to do at discos..score...
The experience made me take stock of myself, I felt like I had betrayed this girl all over again.... I saw that horrible things happen in this country and we dont even know it that somewhere a little girl is crying and hurting and being destroyed physically and mentally... I refused to realize that those barbaric events are happening all over the county as is being reported in the media lately.
All my life it has been easier to look away, to act like this doesn't happen to not talk about it, to refuse to even THINK about it...
I was touched deeply by that young woman, and I can still remember her, looking bravely ahead at life, confident that she could overcome her History, talking and acting like it didn't bother her anymore.. but it was right there, beneath the surface... but she hadn't given up..
So in your comments please remember that She didnt have any fault.... It was NOT her fault....
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LOL Proshka
Submitted by 2hot2handle on Fri, 2006-06-23 14:49.
Its true...i agree with the girl having a one night stand then spilling her guts out to this guy...heck i've had too many one night stands myself (kind of proud of it yeah) but thats beside the point. like you said...its a one night fock then get the fock out after...hahahah no kind of "marry me now" thing or "I need you...dont leave me!" hahahaha...wisen up people...life too shaat fu di burden people with latta bull shait...lol! nuff respek to everyone who wrote and added their two cents...made for a good forum...if you can call it that! i like the line of thought...makes you see who the real dick heads are and who the real pussy are...we bun down pussies...hehehehe:)
I Remain,
2hot2handle
words of wisdom from a kid.
Submitted by road fly on Fri, 2006-06-23 10:16.
good to see there are still cocksman out there.
hehehehe
I know I will take heat from the emotionally correct crew.
shiiiiiit
Submitted by kidperu on Fri, 2006-06-23 09:58.
been there done that, just listen, play like its worth listening,cause a girl love a man who aint diisin, but respectin instead, remember after all you both on the same bed, tis true that u might be thinkin wid di nex head, be true, realize don't compromize, hell a one night stander aint got no eyes, nor feelings or emotions send to shit all foolish comotions, regardless of how true it might be, fellows we got to get some of that PUSSYYYYYYYYYYY.............KID PERU
demolish it
one nyte
Submitted by neo-fly-ergo on Thu, 2006-06-22 23:09.
wood breaka mah heart
i need to plane more wood than that
the matrix is the world/box that has been pulled over your eyes...by youir fathers............lies
i am
Submitted by neo-fly-ergo on Thu, 2006-06-22 23:08.
a virgin
when it cums to one nyte stands
i usually have two a nyte stands or two nighter stands
ru ready
the matrix is the world/box that has been pulled over your eyes...by youir fathers............lies
Its nice
Submitted by belizeanhottie on Thu, 2006-06-22 10:59.
2 know dat men still have conscience.
thanks ms. p
Submitted by nygirl on Wed, 2006-06-21 23:14.
About time Ms. P came along to inject some reality into this string. You guys really believe women go out and have one night stands hoping the guy will marry her? Plllleeeease.. When will you egotistical (so full of your own dicks) guys realize that women love sex, too. Plenty of women go out to get a guy for sex, and that's it. Someone would have to be awfully young to really believe that they're going to have sex with somebody and fall in love right then and there. I have one night stands and think it's great fun.
One thing I never understood, though, is why people think they have to lie. Why can't people share sex and be friends. Just tell the truth, and if you hit it off, you might make a good friend.
I do think it's great that money is having a crisis over this. At least he has some feelings about something, which is cool. But maybe he's just making it all up. Or maybe the girl is making it all up. Wouldn't it be funny if this was just her way of getting over. She could be cracking up over it with her girlfriends the next day.
Ms P.
Submitted by punisher on Wed, 2006-06-21 13:29.
them no ready fi you gal.....most men are use to chicken heads....
..u had me crackin up...tell it like it is baby...
"this is not revenge but punishment"
Anywayzzzz Flies -
Submitted by Proshka on Wed, 2006-06-21 11:40.
I'm out - Miss P has some work to do -
Cheers all...
Money, u handle urself now....
I came I saw & I Koncassed... P
i'm good -
Submitted by Proshka on Wed, 2006-06-21 11:35.
gettin ready baby...
just made myself another cup of coffee - hows the office???
I came I saw & I Koncassed... P
how is the Artist this morning?
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Wed, 2006-06-21 11:12.
Artist/writer/businesswoman....
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Morning Morning -
Submitted by Proshka on Wed, 2006-06-21 11:09.
Morning Money & Koncas ppls
Rise n shine everyone...
I came I saw & I Koncassed... P
awwwwwwwwwwww - poor money
Submitted by Proshka on Wed, 2006-06-21 10:53.
Wait for my Next Blog on Monday...
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Wed, 2006-06-21 10:51.
email me with your comments...
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hahaha Hindsight is a bitch
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Wed, 2006-06-21 10:44.
and my conciense and pity are my weaknesses... cant help it...
has gotten me into some really bad situations where I know the female is crazy but.....you know.....
is just me hun.. just me...
CORN: THE GREAT
Now yall know that Miss P -
Submitted by Proshka on Wed, 2006-06-21 01:40.
the A to the G needs to log on for this shiatttttt.
Wtf is wrong w u ppl, are you even listening to your selves… No wonder equal rights btw man and woman is so hard to obtain – Damn – listen up, I noh feel sorry fi any woman that goes home with a dude and has a one night stand…. And quoting Raisel “Hell yes, .. all men here on koncas (including me) like to go out and be able to convince a young girl for a one night stand.. i gues s it feeds your egos. But what about the Damage we do? We scar many girls, sometimes they dont have to be traumatized girls, sometimes they are perfect, decent, girls out for a night.. and we convince them (cause hell, we good at it) to sleep with us, bust their virginity and boom ...” LOL – unu really full a unu selves if u feel that way – women aren’t chicken heads, all I am hearing from this shit is BLA BLA BLA….. Oh come on friend, which normal chick would give it up right so??? Bway the chick already has problems if she handing it out in one night, and that’s a fact… If I take a dude home for a one nighter you can best believe that I’m NOT gonna be all attached the next day – f -that – that is the point of a one night stand – and Money you dah wah pussy for getting all into talk and life stories, Roady was right about that. Too many chicks have weak minds and need to wisen and toughen up. Latta fish in the sea, latta man di out deh, why on earth would they/you/she get attached to some random dude -
Poor girl no doubt for going through that horrible experience, but if you were indeed a one nighter, that information should not have been given to you in the first place – bway money u soooofffffffftttttttttttt - soft, big pussy bway. And all u ppl saying you need to reconsider one night stands b/c it “scars” the chicks, wtf – didn’t the chick choose to also have a one night stand, hellllllllooooooooo, why in the world would she be scarred.
OPEN YOUR EYES TO THE LIES B/F YOU PPL…
PS – HOTTT CHICKS CAN PAINT TOO
I came I saw & I Koncassed... P
Every man in this map loves a nice piece of ass
Submitted by Gingimojo on Tue, 2006-06-20 13:04.
"Bad is never good until worse happens"
You could be wrong about the young guy thing
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:43.
In belize alot of the old men are now players that slay everything, in the past I guess age meant a slower sex life, but ever since viagra was introduced these guys are now on the forefront of playaism and most of them have a little bit more money than the younger guys...
So you had a one-night stand, Money and then had
Submitted by Glenn on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:42.
an attack of conscience when the "further" circumstances revealed themselves to you.
My comment is a re-post of something I posted a year ago. I won't re-post your response.
"I wouldn’t say I’ve been unlucky in love, and I would not say that I’ve been a stud. I know, though, that I’ve lived long enough to have formed some opinions based on my experiences.
I was promiscuous in my late teens, early twenties, and though I do not regret the experience, as I approach middle age, I look back and wonder how much damage and hurt I dealt out in pursuit of sex.
I used to chase women and thought it as natural as dogs chased cars. For the most part it was a game I assumed everyone played or wanted to play. I wasn’t sure because I didn’t talk about it or talk it over with anyone much. It was a guy thing, I thought, to lie, cheat, dissemble or otherwise mis-represent yourself to get under a woman’s skirt and between her legs. It never occurred to me I might be doing harm ‘cause I was having too much fun.
I did not for a second think that I had anything to be ashamed of, so I never felt guilty.
Looking back now from the vantage point of age and experience, I realize I had to have hurt some of these women. Whether I was a poor lover or a superb lover, they gave of themselves. And if that is not a definition of love, then I don’t know what is.
Of course I was fooled and hurt a few times too. Some betrayed my trust; some just used me but I shrugged it off ‘cause I felt you win some, you lose some.
But for too many years I operated along the old four “F” lines: you know: find ‘em, fool ‘em, f—k them; then forget ‘em.
The odd thing is I never felt a sense of worthwhile accomplishment, and that, I suppose, equaled my lack of a sense of guilt.
Sex was, and still is wondrous to me, and back then the wonder excluded all else.
Yeah, I’m grown now, but this is no mea culpa. I love women, always will, but I think I love and appreciate them even more now.
Funny business, this business of growing older. Age and experience force you to view the other dimensions of people beyond the narrow perspective of your needs and wants.
Women will always be objects of desire for me, but never again merely objects of desire. To have continued that way would have meant that I would have missed out on some of the best times of my life spent in their company that had virtually nothing to do with sex.
In the end I gotta admit, I do regret the damage my lack of consideration and immaturity may have caused. When your actions wound anyone you’re wrong and should admit it. And I regret that I missed out on some great people because I could not see any further than the end of my, well heck, you know, my nose."
"On the internet nobody knows you're a dog!"
to answer your " i mean sex is great but what after that".
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:39.
I don't smoke cigarettes but I heard one after some good sex is great.
ok guys
Submitted by ke_dog on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:30.
yeah ii know this is not the norm but fuck it . i think that only really young guys try to fuck s many gurls as they can. and as u get older. just fucking a many gurl just is not rewarding. i mean i love sex don't get me wrong. but these guys that just go out and pray on these young inexperence gurls is not cool. but i am not forcing my opionion on any body. i mean sex is great but what after that . there is so much more that u are not getting
any way continue fucking the little gurls it probly going to make you happy. but for how long?
if you saw the girl you would NEVER beleive..
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:18.
just goes to show that you NEVER KNOW so dont go by looks.. ever...
on the outside a nice decent pretty girl with an ordinary family...on the inside a raped, hurt young girl with a pervert for a father... and a monster for a mother... YOU NEVER KNOW!
CORN: THE GREAT
jajaja.. squeze lime on it
Submitted by rasiel on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:15.
you guys will never change.. thats the fun part about koncas.
A test that I heard about was to squeze lime on it
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:14.
if she screams out then you need to run in the opposite direction...
What the hell is wrong with Ke_dog?
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:14.
DAMN!
and maybe you people are right.. but too many people know Money in real life...
CORN: THE GREAT
aaahhhh Ke_dog come on how do you know ahead of time
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:13.
is there an application you have them fill out, or is there a litmus test, besides looks and how drunk you are? Most guys are happy that they are getting a little play, you know lets not fuck it up and have it turn into a turn off.
Money,
Submitted by belizeanpearl on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:11.
it took courage to post this and I hope you leave it up so that others might think,too, of their actions where women are concerned. Let's hope the experience allows you to have a deep respect for women not only now,when the incident is fresh in your mind but way down in the future.
It is a good read
Submitted by rasiel on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:10.
as always with money's peoms and articles. Also an eye opener for many us young men, living life as if all there is to it is sex,beer,food,sex and in that order. Theres more to life... and all our actions have consequences. Hell yes, .. all men here on koncas (including me) like to go out and be able to convince a young girl for a one night stand.. i gues s it feeds your egos. But what about the Damage we do? We scar many girls, sometimes they dont have to be traumatized girls, sometimes they are perfect, decent, girls out for a night.. and we convince them (cause hell, we good at it) to sleep with us, bust their virginity and boom ... we take a girl who could have been a good women and make her into a dysfunctional disco going party fiend.!! jeez what am i talking about here?
ok. it your dick put it where u want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Submitted by ke_dog on Tue, 2006-06-20 12:07.
you guys seem to always make a funny spin of topics .i think the gurl need help. i for one really don't pick gurls like that, it way to risky. ( but some one tresure is a other man garbage ). to each is on. so if you want to put your faith in rubbers and it might just stretch out.
money you got to let this thread stand
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:55.
great material on here. hehehehehe
Ok...
Submitted by punisher on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:55.
dont nobody get your panties in a bunch.....sick joke i know...going to hell? ...ofcourse.....but thats for me to deal with...
"this is not revenge but punishment"
Money...
Submitted by punisher on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:53.
I think a counsellor would be better than sending her to theRapist
"this is not revenge but punishment"
and Ke Dog..
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:49.
I guess I have to take my chances with the 99. something percent effectiveness of a rubber.
CORN: THE GREAT
hold up let me save all the post and repost
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:49.
them.
hehehe
anywayses.. just wanted you guys to think
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:48.
about it because it is too commonplace nowadays...
topic is coming off in 5minutes...
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The Girl you sound like a real nice girl
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:44.
I hear you, serious topic but you know we add a little humour on this site. Shit when i want depressing news I just read the newspaper, or channel 5/ Channel 7 website.
Its just a Knee Jerk Reactions from some Females.
Submitted by leff wi money lone on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:43.
But it is a reality that men go to discos to try to get "some" but it really touched me and roady is right, thats what I get for getting her to talk. But I think it has given me a deeper respect for women and what they sometimes go through.
the entire incident also made me apreciate the life that I have and the total love that my family gave and continues to give me; dont take it for granted because a lot of families are disfunctional.
Plus I did try to get her to go to a counselor... therapist... Just couldn't tell her the name of one cause I dont know any...
CORN: THE GREAT
Maybe
Submitted by The girl the one on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:41.
Maybe i got a little carried away, but for me this is trully heart wrenching. Because like i said it has happened to people, who are close to my heart. Some of which attempted suicide after being misled by men. It just tears me up to see them hurt after being abused and for some guy to come along and add to there pain.
Diplomacy...is the art of saying nice doggy until you can find a rock!
Just got off the phone with Money, little clarification Ke_dog
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:40.
He said it was easy to pick up the girl cause he slipped something in her drink, he then proceeded to pick her up, put her over his shoulder and take her home.
lol!!!!!!!
leff wi money lone
Submitted by ke_dog on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:37.
let me put a other spin on the story. u ever though why the gurl gave u her pussy so easy. i figure ur a ok looking guy but just like that. you never though about that then to tell you a story like that.i think u should go get tested she might have some thing . i mean shes confuse hurted her whole life has change. well it probly nothing but i would still do it.she does need some professional help . i mean if she is going to tell a guy she just meet about something so personal then she does need a professional. cause maybe she it is bothering her so much that she need to get it out and might hurt herself if she does not get the right kind of attention.
Belize Women against Violence
Belize
Tel: (501-8) 22-74845
plus
Submitted by Dacta Fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:34.
almost all the guys on koncas, and the females who do the same....
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I remember one time I took this girl home and
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:33.
after hot steamy sex I feel asleep. zzzzzzzzzzzzz znoooorrrressssss zzzzzzzzzzz, I woke up the next morning and she was gone, no breakfast, no flowers, no phone call, no letters, not even a goodbye, she was gone, gone, gone...
I remember just laying in my bed crying, crying, crying, wanting her to protect me (not sure from what), to make things right(not sure what went wrong), somehow change history(unelect Musa and his crooked regime) and erase the pain and hurt that I had gone through(rec'd my tax bill)...
Plus
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:26.
I wouldn't want to see money go blind from jerking, cause then who will watch wi money??
Thou without sin, throw the first stone....
Submitted by redhead on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:23.
Left-wi-money-lone is just like any typical young man in Belize. When I was his age, going to disco looking for a one-night stand was something guys did. Stop, acting as if he was the one that did anything wrong.
I think we all learn from our experiences, hopefully this will make Money take his life more seriously. There are times in a man's life when certain experiences change his thinking, hopefully Money have learnt from this event. But, more importantly, have WE learnt anything???
fuck!!! You being a little hard on Money.
Submitted by road fly on Tue, 2006-06-20 11:21.
I don't think going to a bar and getting a little play makes the man a dog. Its not like he knew ahead of time that she was a little unstable and targeted her. Actually the man looks like he has a heart cause we all(Guys) come to that cross road of being a pimp(slang) or a caring partner. Some guys actually come back to that crossroad many times in there life.
Give the man a break, "The Girl the one" ,I am not judging you but I also know that alot of girls that experience this kinda of trauma get turned off by men and turn to lesbian relationships. So that would make a lesbian in such a relationship an oppurtunist too.
Its not about Money or lesbians, its about the girl finding some help and trying to heal herself.
Money u disgust me!!!
Submitted by The girl the one on Tue, 2006-06-20 10:59.
This one really touched me because it has happened to people, who are close to my heart. People, who take advantage of these poor girls disgust me. Money you go around pursuing sex yet you never stop to think about how much damage you may be causing. Because all you can think about is your own selfish needs. This poor girl probably goes to a bar to drink and escape the pain if only for a little while and falls for the first man, who whispers sweet words to her because she is traumatized. While on the oustside she may have on the plastic smile believe you me on the inside its as if it just happened in her mind. The part that is heart wrenching for me is seeing these girls going around looking for love. All they want is someone to tell them that they love them or show them that they care. But all they get is men like you, who add to there pain. Men like you disgust me!
Diplomacy...is the art of saying nice doggy until you can find a rock!
remember this episode.. changed me..kinda
Somebody please set up another KONCAS-LIKE site for me to continue posting stuff... It is a release that I need... can someone point me in the right direction????????????
Given up on Koncas.....
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